Dream

“First artists friends only in Amsterdam. Successful artists – you must be intelligent because you don’t say much. I go in the opposite direction and talk too much and insist that I have something to say. You can never have too many references, there is so many people creating things all the time. When an audience (pays), I have a gun to my head and i have to be as truthful, honest and vulnerable as possible. You better do it or die. I don’t see what I do as entertainment, that is the opposite of what I do. I respond in the moment, but it has taken 20 years to get to the point.” – SMW.

“Sexually, we are a mirror for each other when you cruise. You can never see yourself as other people see you – we have to get in each other’s head and that can’t happen. Archiving puts me back – I need to go back and forth between who I was and who I am.” – SMW.

“I’m already a man I don’t want to take up too much space – on men overtaking/monopolising conversations.” – SMW.

“Britney is timeless. She survived 2008.” – SMW and AC.

“I wanted to escape and exist independently (from De Ateliers).” – SMW.

“Wilke’s vaginal gum sculptures. You die, the value goes sky high. Assertion of myself over a painful past, Wilke to melt with her. Can I see myself in relation to her and what she does?” – SMW.

“This is a rescued work, I didn’t even remember it.” – SMW

Pornographing Annamaria Pinaka, not a match, being a chapter in phd thesis x2. I call myself a beauty warrior – acceptance of the fact that you can’t remain beautiful all the time. Envy of this timeless beauty that she has, it’s a little bit of a Marilyn Monroe situation. Nose job. A beautiful woman using herself as an image – how can we do that and resist objectification? Beauty at the doors of death as a cautionary tale. Having to be nearly dead before anyone takes notice of you.

“Writing over someone who I was angry at-often men. Jasper Jones.” – SMW.

“Carolee. The collage is a foundation overview of where I come from and what was important to me – what still is. I cruise men sexually and I cruise women intellectually. My generation was a mess – when I talked about feminist art, nobody wanted to listen. I get suspicious when things are too cool i.e. feminism these days has this audience that rejected it before.” – SMW.

“Mis-referencing, referencing and creating networks. I had some success in galleries in the beginning, and I hated it”. Abramović gallery. The greedy gallery floor. – SMW.

Email exchange – 21.05.20. “I want to stress that gift giving is a big part of what I do. I sometimes think I want to be paid to give things away. We should offer visitors/press people etc. free ‘I am a horse’ buttons and bring over some of my ‘Profeminist WHITE FLOWERS’ books, maybe even to give as gifts and to sell. Deborah you must have one of these as well, I will do a horse signature for you! Also, as Radna said, “emotions, feelings, thoughts, relationships and behavior” are my real materials for art. I don’t like to think of myself as a visual artist because the things that mean the most and are the most determinant in my life are invisible, like perfume.” – SMW.