c. 2000

“Was there an Abstract Expressionist (Jasper Johns?) that used ‘no’ in his titles? As many of the are, this is so simple… maybe worth destroying? NO!” – MH.

“Sands’ initials (still fooling around with the name thing).” – MH.

“I don’t remember making this. Sometimes I remember making them…” – SMW. “I always wanted to be a writer. I never studied or anything, but I figure anyone who starts writing is a writer.” – SMW.

Rijksakademie Internal Open Studios – 07.09.20. “… De Ateliers as a boys club. I was gay but I had a penis so it didn’t matter. I lost contact with Carolee for a year, and I asked myself, what happened? All my feminist work was kind of tossed by them.” – SMW. “I was laughed away because I was a woman. The only way to survive is to become one of the boys […]. Feminist as a word, but a dirty word.” – Anon.

“I remember making this one: I had a tutor at the Ateliers (Chris Dercon) who was always double with me: friendly to my face, but (as it later turned out) was requesting I be asked to leave for being ‘too messy’. Dercon always wore colorful scarves during our studio visits.” – SMW.

SMW & AC inventorying session – 03.09.20. “Dream a little dream of me is my Carolee song.” – SMW. SMW & AC inventorying session – 24.09.20. “I was distracted by the dream of…” – SMW. “The story?” – AC. “Sex.” – SMW.

“This is a weird one because it’s about selling a work to the Stedelijk — ‘I’m Proud of Myself’, a piece of gay portraiture (such a strange phrase — what is gay portraiture?)” – SMW paraphrased by MH.

“I guess I was thinking of the most visceral phrasing I could imagine. Carolee was always so good at speaking about the body in visceral terms, like putting it into literal words.” – SMW paraphrased by MH.

“I was wanting to get seduced by the people working at the immigration office. Wanting to get seduced by anyone on the street. Wondering if I was seductive, seductive enough.” – SMW paraphrased by MH.