Discomfort

“All this archiving… I think it is also a form of self-care.” – SMW.

Rijksakademie Internal Open Studios – 07.09.20. “Performing these days is difficult, because of the pandemic. We have to reinvent ourselves. I am just trying to make something useful for my daily live, and the people around me.” – Anon. “Exactly, day to day caring structures. That’s what we do.” – AC.

9 april 2020 (WeTransfer notes): “Okay, here are some of the most important works I’ve ever made: ‘Elke & Sands: Equalities, Equivalences’ from 2002 in a series of images taken by Robin in an old flat of ours in my studio there. It’s a wonder these ever were taken and I still love them.” – SMW.

9 april 2020 (WeTransfer notes): “AND also the ones with VALIE and that’s when VALIE got so pissed with me. Top secret but also top important/significant.” – SMW.

Inventorying session + invited archivist (IA) meeting – 15.09.20. “Behaviour, emotions, thoughts, feelings and relationships-as with Hannah. A performative trace of something that isn't visible, but is very traceable.” – SMW.

“This is like the size for people who want a rolled painting, but don’t want to deal with the hassle of framing a rolled painting.” – SMW.

“I had to throw away a lot of these, there were also Dutch gay liberation magazines in the boxes Erik Hagoort gave me, called ‘De Verkeerde Krant’ or so, (‘van de verkeerde kant’ was a Dutch saying for a queer person) but due to storage I could not keep everything as a resource to use. There are hundreds of these painted drawings, and they get quite a good response. Paul Thek = newspaper paintings, Karen Finley = same as Paul Thek, Erik Hagoort is the partner of Dutch artist Albert van Westing and AA Bronson showed a fondness for the drawings.” – SMW.

“I had to throw away a lot of these, there were also Dutch gay liberation magazines in the boxes Erik Hagoort gave me, called ‘De Verkeerde Krant’ or so, (‘van de verkeerde kant’ was a Dutch saying for a queer person) but due to storage I could not keep everything as a resource to use. There are hundreds of these painted drawings, and they get quite a good response. Paul Thek = newspaper paintings, Karen Finley = same as Paul Thek, Erik Hagoort is the partner of Dutch artist Albert van Westing and AA Bronson showed a fondness for the drawings.” – SMW.

“I had to throw away a lot of these, there were also Dutch gay liberation magazines in the boxes Erik Hagoort gave me, called ‘De Verkeerde Krant’ or so, (‘van de verkeerde kant’ was a Dutch saying for a queer person) but due to storage I could not keep everything as a resource to use. There are hundreds of these painted drawings, and they get quite a good response. Paul Thek = newspaper paintings, Karen Finley = same as Paul Thek, Erik Hagoort is the partner of Dutch artist Albert van Westing and AA Bronson showed a fondness for the drawings.” – SMW.

“I had to throw away a lot of these, there were also Dutch gay liberation magazines in the boxes Erik Hagoort gave me, called ‘De Verkeerde Krant’ or so, (‘van de verkeerde kant’ was a Dutch saying for a queer person) but due to storage I could not keep everything as a resource to use. There are hundreds of these painted drawings, and they get quite a good response. Paul Thek = newspaper paintings, Karen Finley = same as Paul Thek, Erik Hagoort is the partner of Dutch artist Albert van Westing and AA Bronson showed a fondness for the drawings.” – SMW.

“I don’t even like white underwear, and that’s why.” – SMW. “Gendering bodily fluids.” – AC.

Email exchange – 12.04.20. “I had to document it all, even with others, partners, etc. because gay pornography figures and has figured in my life so I have to put my own body where I see the bodies of others…” – SMW.