Dream

“I never thought I would have any help with anything.” – SMW.

“Birth certificate. Rewrite your own existence? I don’t think that ever changes, the baby feeling, the inner child. Almost like an onion, the baby is the center and then you have these layers. Separate my identity from who I was at that point.” – SMW and AC.

“Ben Shawn, The Shape of Content. My frustration often is that many artists are focused on the form. Acquiring form through content. Hmmm what shape can we give to the content.” – AC and SMW.

“They should go in. They are just trash anyway. It doesn't have a signature. But it is your signature. Where did the lips and eye end up?” – SMW.

“It’s necessary to have some money. It’s hard to know how I feel in the middle of doing something.” – SMW.

“Pancake restaurant with HUGE cakes (something like 5 dinner plates big!). Could eat for the next few days. Photo taken when visited with mother.” – SMW.

“Hannah on the phone. I've always been into people who take control of their own image. I can't see through your eyes. Art and your body – you can't. The total package. The interior, the exterior, the brain, the body. You're very greedy you want everything and I do.” – SMW and AC. “Flirting with the idea of being a pop star. Patti Smith I can do this.” – SMW and AC.

“They are probably nice guys but it's kind of intense.” – SMW.

“Ben Shawn's illustration from The Shape of Content – one of the less didactic 'you should follow' kind of figures I was introduced to. I actually was interested in his work. Very sweet.” – SMW paraphrased by MH.

“Carolee performance scroll. Silver tape because so did she.” – SMW.

“Wilke with mom trying out wigs. ‘Your art mama’, Carolee would have hated that.” – SMW.

“De Ateliers teachers were all men and when I tried to get Carolee to come teach, they felt very threatened. Too much is scary for people. I don’t know if I can call myself subaltern, but maybe in my own way. Who are you actually talking to? Who would you like your audience to be? Can you choose it? Probably you can’t, it’s whomever shows interest and that is unpredictable.” – SMW and AC.

“Performalist. It’s funny when your image becomes part of your work. Hannah did it because she was beautiful and that was troublesome for feminists, they thought it was easy, but it wasn’t. I’ve been objectified in different ways – my face not being good enough, always commenting on my weight (I think the unusual bits of me are part of what make me queer). Who makes them entitled to someone else’s physicality? Carolee always told me to go where the difficulty is, and that is (my) physicality. So, I made it central because people thought it was important somehow to draw my attention to. Sometimes I wish I could have been more handsome but then that was all I would’ve been known as. I can bridge the more and less beautiful.” – SMW.