Performance video

“I had to document it all, even with others, partners, etc. because gay pornography figures and has figured in my life so I have to put my own body where I see the bodies of others… This is a ‘secret’ webpage on my website, that you need the exact link to get to. As with the normal/original ‘Sands Sex’ but with music added for extra affect/effect. Music I loved the listened to at the time…” – SMW.

“I had to document it all, even with others, partners, etc. because gay pornography figures and has figured in my life so I have to put my own body where I see the bodies of others… This is a ‘secret’ webpage on my website, that you need the exact link to get to. As with the normal/original ‘Sands Sex’ but with music added for extra affect/effect. Music I loved the listened to at the time…” – SMW.

“This could have been partially influenced by Elke Krystufek’s live and video performances masturbating. I was trying to respond from the male sides to what she was doing. I still wonder why certain (white?) women feel the need to deal so explicitly with sexual imagery, self pleasuring, and why it interested me. Lots of thoughts on this but this is not the space. I have shown this video and sections of it several times, also in the graduation performance of Annabel Kanaar at 1646 art space in The Hague (see bio). It’s again and again about ‘the truth’ and to see if how it looks is how it feels. Germaine Greer says that real sex looks terrible filmed, but what is real sex?” – SMW.

“The reason I like that video… I cry in it (if you look closely there’s a tear rolling down my cheek), and the only time there’s a video of me painting. You can literally see my hand moving with a tiny brush. Like the wetness of the paint.” – SMW.

“There is a very special video. 1 1/2 hours of me dancing to music in front of a mirror in my first independent flat/room in Amsterdam in 1998. This could also be nice to consider, it’s probably the best video I ever made so I’m keeping it ‘precious’ and not putting it online…” – SMW.